It is a myth that we become more capable as we age. In fact, we become more capable as we age. We can still have a big impact on others, even if we’ve lost that big impact at some point. Unfortunately, we are not as capable as we once were. What we are capable of is how we choose to act, which is a completely different level of self-awareness.
The worst thing about being a narcissist is that it makes you appear to be so self-obsessed and self-involved that you have no problem showing off your narcissism and self-involvement. If you want to do something badly enough, you are able to get away with it. If you want to do something well enough, you get away with it too.
This is why I can’t stand when people criticize people with mental illness for being “too self-involved.” It’s a way of saying, “Yes, I’m too selfish to care about others,” which is absolutely ridiculous.
I could say the same thing about my own friends who are so self-involved they feel like they have so much on their plate that they don’t even notice that they have so many tasks to complete that are completely unrelated to their social lives that they can’t help but show off that they are so self-involved.
You can actually learn a lot from people who suffer from mental illness. Being self-involved is not a bad thing. You are simply more aware of your needs in life and you are more self-aware. It is possible to be self-aware and still be a complete idiot, and in a lot of ways I wish I had learned that from myself.
The idea that we can be so self-involved that we can’t even notice that we are on autopilot is one of the big assumptions of this piece that I’ll be discussing in more detail shortly. Karma itself is a part of that assumption too. The biggest thing that people who suffer from mental illness often find themselves doing is feeling bad for themselves. Of course, I don’t mean being bad for themselves.
And I agree. There are a lot of things that people with mental illness do that are just bad for them. But the fact that they feel bad for themselves is a part of that. And yes, I know that most people who suffer from mental illness feel bad for themselves. But I think it’s important to be aware of how much mental illness affects you, even if you dont know you’re ill.
The way to be aware of mental illness is to take action. Taking action (like going to a medical doctor) can help a person realize when they need help. This can be as simple as getting a good mental health checkup. Or it can be as complex as getting help for a specific problem. For instance, a person might have a problem with the way they think or the way they behave.
I’ve always wondered what it would be like to be told, “You are not yourself.” At least that’s how I felt about my own mental illness. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in my early twenties. I had tried every medication I could find and did whatever I could to overcome the suicidal thoughts that accompanied my mental illness. To be honest, I hated myself. I hated that I had to go through all this and I would do anything I could to end it.
So you can only imagine how it must have felt to have an illness that would literally kill you (as well as all of your family and friends). This is one of the reasons why we don’t see too many people on Deathloop. I’ve only felt like this once in my life (and it was just a couple of weeks ago), but I know I will have a tendency to get a bit paranoid. I’m sure you have too.