Not only do we have a soul but we have a brain that is the core of our being. We have a brain that can think abstractly, that can reason deeply, and that is what we are going to be making this year. We are going to be forming new ideas that are going to contribute to a new way of living, which is a very exciting and gratifying thing to be doing.
You can add to this list of exciting things to be doing if you don’t mind your brain getting a bit more tired. It’s a natural response to the fact that our brains have so much going on that it is hard to stay focused and focus on anything. In the immortal words of the great David Sedaris, “I’ve just got to let it go.
So here’s the deal. The fact is that the majority of our thoughts and actions are on autopilot. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing either. Our habits, routines, impulses, and reactions carry us through our lives so we don’t have to stop and think about it every time we wipe our ass or start a car.
The problem is when we’re on autopilot for so long that we forget we’re on autopilot. Because when we’re not even aware of our own habits, routines, impulses, and reactions, then we no longer control them they control us.
Our own habits, routines, impulses, and reactions are the ones that control not only our behavior, but our brains as well. And when we’re so caught up in our own habits that we forget that we are actually controlling the actions of others, we can’t keep the peace.
The problem is that, like most of our habits, the ones that control us are not always obvious. Sometimes we can feel them, sometimes we can feel them subtly. But they are there, and it’s up to us to figure them out. Which brings us to the next part of the soul tiredness thing.
Just because something is there doesn’t mean it’s there to stay. It’s not. The act of noticing, the act of accepting, the act of changing the habits that set you up for them, is what is required to allow them to change your behavior. You can’t just give up. You can’t just change the way you feel. You have to change what you’re doing.
You have to be willing to change. You have to be willing to change the habits that drive you to act in certain ways. You have to learn to accept (not just tolerate) the things that set you up for your “soul tiredness” to be there. In the end, its not about you. Its about something else. It is about change.
In the end, you have to be willing to change. If you cant change your habits, then you cant change anything.